Just because I feel like saying something

M went to Malaysia already. I am feeling lonely – laughs- I won’t even miss her if she didn’t mention it. But now that she mentioned it, I would think of how it would be like to overseas with her… travelling…

We went to catch up on the Avengers before she left. I must admit it, I’m impressed. I was laughing 70% of the show, so much so that I shook M on the couple seat which was not too much of a couple seat.

M was saying how she couldn’t get herself to watch the Hulk, which was the only superhero among all in the Avengers that has one or two or more solo movies that she didn’t watch.

So I told her I didn’t watch all. But I did watch a bit of the previous quite old Hulk movie… which was purely not by choice. -laughs- I did not feel the need for that much superheros in my life. I watched the madhouse/marvel attempts at these superheros and I didn’t survive well though. I’m not interested in Tony Stark either.

But frankly speaking, after this show, I’m interested. I was extremely interested esp after the scene where Hawkeye/Black Widow/Captain America came in too late and Ironman got irritated. The awkward situation was something I am familiar with, having caused it a lot of times with my tone and words. To see Iron man re-create it was like, wow. I’m impressed.

You can bet your money I’m going to start watching all these superheros.

Still, my ultimate love is Hulk. I love that sentence – “That’s the secret. I’m always angry.” It hit the spot with me… I mean, I have been always angry since IDK how many years old. It just feels frustrating. Prof Banner, LESSON SIGNED UP FOR.

25th

Right, so today is the assigned day for me to celebrate my b-day… well.. even if it is not the actual day, I am still looking forward to it!

Managed to tricked M into thinking I am already in the location, which is impossible!! Hahaha, but still did. Don’t know why the clever and intelligent M who is always so logical and whose brain always thinks in form of probability would be tricked, but upon clarification, I found out that poor M was too distracted to keep up with my constant mind games….. ahahaha!

A rare win!

Damnation

AHHH! I finally worked out how people came to know about THIS blog! And after years of using wordpress!

You know how it freaked me out when people who were following my other blogs came to follow this? Oh, you don’t know.

Oh well…. This used to be my private fuming place. Now don’t feel that private. But I have made amendments. But the old ones will remain unchanged.

For those who wanted to know what happened, whenever you comment, your name will be linked to your blog, and depending on which blog you have that you have set to be linked to your name. Since this was my first and main blog, it was my default…. until now. But the old comments which I have made will still be linked to here……… a real damnation, right?

Hhahaa, oh well. A blog well named.

Romance between boys

Seriously, I am not the romance kind of writers.

Oh yes, I dream… everyone dreams of their own romance. But to ask me to write about two people falling in love… oh gosh, that is hard! My writings have a few flaws, one of which is emotions, or rather, the lack thereof emotions. So, to think, I need to write about romance… I don’t know why, but other than being attracted for some reason to write this story, there’s no reason for me to torture myself so.

How am I supposed to be writing a love story, much less a Boy’s love story??? Oh gosh. My only solution is this: Do not rush it. Just let it be, and slowly develop on it’s own. So I am rather worried about this next story, if it would be too rushed too soon? But the bad thing is, everyone else is too busy to be helping me to read/ check it. If any of you are free… oh well, I better not seek trouble. *laughs*

Let me hear my new favourite song one more time, and I shall knock off on the bed.

And the sun is up again

Time to work on the writings again, even if I woke up with a running nose and mild coughs. NOT GOOD.

Must be the late nights and whatever nots.

Oh well… time to check and edit!!

Zzzz

Finally brushed up my writer’s blog…. I am seriously tired.

But if it is not for the new project I am working on, it would definitely be … left as it is and had been since 2010… and we already in 2012.

What had I been doing, really?

DeviantArt, sharing my works with my friends and just recording for my personal purposes.

Oh, I dreadfully wanted to post the work online now….. But … I need to refine it first…. and taht takes time. And I am supposed to be sleeping now to be healthy….. *I could roll my eyes at this….* sighz.

wrong.

This world is much nicer than me. They had to, when people forgo courtesies and just do things as they like. And it’s like little old me, who feels this passion about keeping courtesies and respect.

And yes, it’s not my project. So I have no say.

You know what? At least I can say this. Shit you.

Appreciation

Seriously, it is great to be able to see people appreciating the things you are doing, even if it is something so simple other “me” (people in my position) can do. 

I am glad I took that step forward and offered my services. Even if I am still kept in the dark area from the general public, I am still happy to be able to see some little news of appreciation~

 

Me.

There are people who don’t like my gloominess.

There are people whom…. somehow or rather, because of something or another, I cared about, but … they felt that I am too negative that I am taking away their carefully planned happiness…. like how I am too pessimistic when they are trying their best to be optimistic.

I swear I did not do it on purpose. I am just the way I am.

Because I love you, I wanted to warn you, to help you in whatever little way I can. But of course, things like this is a pathetic excuse for what I am doing.

But I cannot hide my gloominess…..

 

I can only wish there is someone who can love me for who I am, and despite who I am.

Money

Earning money does this intoxicating thing to you. Where you forgot why you were earning money in the first place… placed you in that powerful position… to throw reality in favour of fantasy and live your life a servant.